Oh MoJo, where have you gone??

Oh motivation...where have you gone?

I seem to work out and run more when I have a job...a friend suggested that maybe when you are laying around being lazy, it's easier to just keep being lazy (Thanks Ray!)....that could be it...

Actually if you look at my workout logs...I have been doing about the same amount of hours...if you count the hiking. For some reason I downplay hiking...like it's not REAL exercise. I think it's because I enjoy it so much. As much as I like running and doing Jillian DVD's, there is still a part of me that considers it hard...well maybe not the running...the hardest thing about running for me is just taking the time to do it.

Today was an especially tough day. I haven't even been running much...I was doing about 10 miles a week, but the past 2 weeks I have only gotten in 2 days of running each week instead of 3. And most of those runs have felt forced. Today was by far the worst. Normally if I just put my running clothes on the desire to run quickly follows....today I was about a mile from home and I just didn't want to be running. The weather was perfect, coolest day yet... I wasn't feeling any aches or pains, my legs didn't feel heavy...I just didn't want to be running. I tried to think of what I DID want to be doing and nothing came to my mind...so I just kept on running. I passed a walker with headphones and thought maybe I need to go back to listening to music while I run. The idea that maybe I didn't feel like listening to myself crossed my mind.... I tried to remind myself to look at the beauty all around me but even that didn't work. So I think it just may be that I am tired of thinking, more than tired of running.

When I hike, Dave is with me. I have someone to talk to, to listen to, to share the beauty, so I don't get distracted my damn thoughts. When I am not running, I am either on the computer...distracted...or reading a book, deeply involved with THEIR issues.

Even without motivation..I still manage to get the workouts in because I know how far I have come and do NOT want to lose my fitness. I even have races coming up and that isn't really motivating me.
I am hoping these feelings will pass...because it used to be the toughest part of working out was the work out...but I think it's even tougher to have these internal fights about just doing it already!!

I keep going back to "this, too, shall pass" and I waiting...even if it's not patiently!